answers

When you do not know what to do..  don’t worry, you do not have to know.

When you do not have the strength to keep fighting… do not worry, you do not have to..

When you feel things are out of control.. do not worry, you are not in control anyway..

-God does not always give us the answers or fixes our problems as fast as we feel they should be fixed.

-While crying out in desperation for the 100th time, God told me very subtly that I do not have to have the strength, that is why we have him. Do you know how many times in the last decade that I have heard and spoke those churchy, spiritual words, understood, them, thanked God for being the support and comforter in my life?… This time it was different.  It was different, enough, to get me through that hour, that day, and that particular week.  Has the severity or reality of hearing God in that moment wore off… a little, BUT it gives me hope that I will remember HE did reach out to me. I forget those subtle moments, that get lost in the overwhelming emotions in this season of my life. So while I am spinning circles in this thing called life, I may forget to give God control, feel guilty when I should know better- but when I come to my senses, I know in my heart, He already has the strength I need to survive, the control of my life to help me and not harm me, and that I will never know the answers- to a lot of things. I just have to have faith- to look to God, when I feel as if I need all of the above. Am I cured, lol. No, but in the midst of heartache and lack of understanding, I know- I am not alone.